R3mm13

Well, the time is coming where I will be shifting my life in a big way again. But I'm not sure if I ever may come back to business after this month. I have 1 event left, and then it's....unknown. My focus has been fractured in too many directions, and much like the switch away from fanart, I didn't want to believe I had to pick the hard road as opposed to the easy road of doing what everyone else was doing. I white knuckled my way and ignored where God was leading me, which made me miserable, as one would expect. But part of submission is trust. I trusted that God would guide me, and He did. Similarly, I still cannot see the path forward, therefore I am nervous but I'm choosing to trust anyway. Not everything I want to do is good for me, or my family, so this must come to an end. No more events.

If the shop is meant to stay up, it will, but I will not be putting a consistent amount of emphasis on it by making content and merch that drains me. My family and my God deserve my best, not my leftovers. I've taken on too much and now is the time I set down something I really love to do for the sake of the ones I love. They need me and I signed up to be a mom and a wife. They won't get the best version of me if my attention is split this way. I want to do better by them because their lives and my walk with the God who saved me are so much more important. I'm still drawing, but the business side has crushed me in a way that I will not exactly hate being away from. I love talking to people, but taxes and algorithms and content...its too much. I'm exhausted and need to focus on things that have been too long ignored. I need peace in my life, so I have to go find it where it has been all along.

I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who has supported me in any way, and that your encouragement meant so much to me. Knowing that people were cheering for me to succeed makes me feel like I failed, but this just shows how messed up my priorities are. I actually failed my family in not putting them first. Pray that I use this time to rearrange everything and everyone where everything and everyone needs to be. New horizons...🌅