Blue Jean

What’s up IG 👀 heard you might want to know where I’m popping up next! Sorry Philly but I’ll be in different East Coast cities this month!

Catch me back in NYC on Saturday the 9th for !! 🤘🏽🖤 still not a phase, mom!

Then I’ll be making my DC deBUTT with .anthologies folklore edition! If you know you know 😉

I’ll be back in Philly soon enough though don’t you worry!

Recent-ish burlesque pics — ‼️body image talk below‼️

So you may have noticed I haven’t been super active online recently, I’ve been taking gigs here and there, but to be so honest with you I haven’t wanted to post any photos from anything because I’ve been so upset with my body lately

Things I’ve always been; plus sized & super depressed
This past year I *finally* found my perfect med concoction that made my anxiety and depression manageable, but it’s also makes it impossible to lose any weight and I’ve definitely gained some since starting it

While I’m glad my depression is no longer completely debilitating, it’s hard to keep it at bay when I’m constantly bombarded by ozempic / GLP1 ads or formerly plus size celebrities who “made an amazing transformation by no longer being fat”

It’s hard to stay body positive when the world constantly echos your mothers sentiment of “it would look better if you lost 5 lbs”

I’m tired. Burlesque was supposed to feel like a safe space for me but since my body was put on blast via podcast…2 years ago now (?) it hasn’t felt safe and I haven’t felt confident, despite what you might see on stage

Maybe that’s why I haven’t been active online. Idk. I’m just trying to be OK & maybe putting it out there will help, maybe I’m just opening myself up to more pain by being vulnerable on main

There’s no wrap up thought to this. Thanks for reading if you did. ✌🏽

Selfies from this past weekend in Scranton ✨ what a blast! I’ve been out of the scene for a minute but it’s been nice to slowly get back on stage 🤘🏽

Between work, odd jobs, & night time classes I’ve been so busy but I’ll be back in the scene soon enough I promise 😘

It’s Hanukkah bi***es 🕎

Shots from the Cabaret of Lights & My Big Gay Jewish Drag Show - I love when I get to bring a little bit of my Jewishness to a show! I’m super excited to bring back two acts this Saturday for ! Free to attend check the stories!

P.s. Hanukkah is the story of overcoming oppressors when it feels like there is not light left in the world & fighting for your rights. Free Palestine. F**k Zionism.

Do you ever miss the days of virtual burlesque? Personally I really do - I thought it made things super accessible & pushed my creative limits to make music videos and splice them all together for an online show

Maybe it’s just me but bring back !!

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Come find me this December! I’m finally out of hiding 😂😅

Next weekend you can catch me not once but TWICE!
celebrates their 10th anniversary on Friday 12/5 & then I bring back all the Cthulhu goodness 💕

Finally you can catch me on 12/20 at BRRRlesque ❄️ can’t wait to celebrate the holidays with all of you!