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The Control I Couldn't Let Go Of

There was a grief inside me that never got to complete itself.
A sadness. A fear. A pain that had been frozen in time.
For years, I thought my struggle with intimacy was about s*x. I thought it was about desire, performance, or figuring out what was "wrong" with me.
But underneath it all was something much deeper.
There was a loop of unprocessed trauma still trying to finish what it never got the chance to finish.
During s*xual abuse, control was taken away from me.
My body learned that letting go wasn't safe.
My nervous system learned that vulnerability could be dangerous.
So even years later, in a loving relationship with someone I trusted deeply, I found myself holding on. Controlling. Monitoring. Thinking. Managing.
Because somewhere inside, there was a belief:
If I let go of control, what do I have?
What I didn't realize was that the part of me holding on wasn't broken.
It was trying to protect me.
The mind often gets blamed for overthinking, but many times it is simply doing its best to keep us safe from feelings that were too overwhelming to feel when they first happened.
Healing wasn't about forcing myself to surrender.
It wasn't about pushing harder or trying to be more s*xual.
It was about creating enough safety for my body to finally feel what it never got to feel.
To let the grief move.
To let the sadness breathe.
To let the frozen parts of me finally thaw.
Because trauma isn't asking to be fixed...Sometimes it's simply asking to be felt.
And on the other side of that feeling wasn't losing control.
It was finding myself.
❤️ If this resonates, know that your need for control may not be a flaw. It may be the wisdom of a nervous system that learned how to survive. The question isn't "How do I force myself to let go?" The question is "How do I create enough safety to finally allow myself to feel?"
Watch the full episode 'The Or**sm Mistake Everyone Makes' on 'Erotic Spirit Podcast' live on all major platforms.

I thought healing meant forgetting. ✨

Instead, I discovered that healing meant remembering without being controlled by the memory.

As a survivor of childhood s*xual abuse, there was a time when my past shaped how I saw myself, my relationships, and what I believed was possible for my life.

Today, that experience is no longer my identity.

Forgiveness wasn't about excusing what happened. It was about reclaiming my peace, my power, and my future.

This conversation is one of the most vulnerable I've shared publicly, and it's at the heart of why I do the work I do today.

✨ Healing is possible.
✨ Freedom is possible.
✨ Your story does not have to define you.

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Jenna Lee is a Source Channeler and Akashic energy healer specializing in subconscious pattern clearing and spiritual awakening. Through Akashic Records, Light Language, and multidimensional transmissions, she helps clients release trauma patterns and survival conditioning so they can reconnect with their original blueprint and highest self.
Her work bridges spirituality, s*xuality, and nervous-system-led transformation through private sessions, retreats, and the Erotic Spirit Podcast.
You were never broken — only conditioned to forget.
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Angela Shelby is a Channel, Medium, Dream Interpretation Expert, and Certified Quantum Touch Practitioner. She channels Spirit Guides, Archangels, and higher consciousness to help clients uncover unconscious blocks and reconnect to their I AM Presence.
With decades of dream interpretation experience, Angela bridges intuition, energy healing, and multidimensional awareness to support deep personal transformation and embodied truth.
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Disclaimer
This event is for educational, spiritual, and entertainment purposes only. Jenna Lee and Angela Shelby are not licensed medical, legal, or mental health professionals. All guidance shared is intuitive and spiritual in nature.
By participating or submitting a question, you accept full responsibility for your well-being and consent to your question or username being referenced during the live or replay.
This is a judgment-free, adult-only (18+) space for respectful conversation around spirituality, s*xuality, and intimacy.