Evolved Balance

Waking up our Truth

It is not an easy process, to unlayer all of the layers that we have accumulated from our conditioning, our limited beliefs and life experiences.

This has made us who we are today. Some of us get comfy in the chaos, the victimhood, the self sabotage. It’s sure a lot easier to be these things then doing the work to heal and become the best version of yourself, because the work is never done.

We came here to experience things and yeah some of them can be super traumatizing, leaving us feeling less than, not good enough, unworthy of what we desire.

So why dream?

I will tell you why, we can literally change anything and everything in our lives.

You just have to believe in yourself!

You just have to trust the process!

You just have to surrender to the present moment and be present!

Letting go of the past, and the future! This is what binds us to the limitations we set for ourselves! Now I know this is not simple, it has taken me years to get to this place of authenticity!

Years to actually believe in myself!

Years to trust that the universe has got my back when I just let go and be in total flow!

I had to let go...

Let go of people who were not serving my highest good, that were so toxic they affected my nervous system in a negative way.

Let go of people who make me so angry, and I become someone I don’t like.

Let go of people who made me feel unloveable, not worthy of unconditional love.

Let go of soooo many limited beliefs keeping me stuck in this cage that kept me stuck, kept me in a lower vibration. That made me someone I was not, because I felt the need to people please.

Let go of playing small, trying to fit in other peoples boxes that their energies are not the same vibration as mine.

I allowed others to manipulate me, because I had no self worth, my identity was in pleasing others! I didn’t even know who I truly was. So lost in this big world.

It made me soooo angry, sooo bitter, sooo afraid, so alone!

You start to think that the world is against you, that this is a trick, why am I here?

I had to learn to be brave!

I had to learn to take a chance on myself!

I had to learn how to be vulnerable!

I had to learn how to get out of my own way!

I had to learn how to take action!

That is my word for this year Accomplish, and I gotta say I am so freakin proud of myself!

I am indeed accomplishing, getting things done, moving forward in my life doing what I truly love, believing in what I do!

I am capable! (Only I can hold myself back!)

I am loveable (Only I can stop myself from receiving!)

I am worthy! (Nobody, but myself can think otherwise!)

I am unique! (We all are, it’s just allowing ourselves to discover our gifts!)

I am smart! (We all are smart, we just let others decide or tell us if we were in the past, yeah why are we allowing others dictate our intelligence?)

It has been a journey, but I have to say the good, the bad, the roller coaster ride, is truly with it! Every second, is there to teach us who we are. To bring us back to who we came here to be.

When people start to seem like they are in crisis, it’s because they are having a major epiphany that their whole lives have been living for others, and not actually for themselves!

I am not saying be selfish by any means! The key is to be a leader in your life! Be honest with yourself and who you truly are! Self love is so important, if we don’t take care of ourselves how can we care for others?

Do the people who surround you bring out the best in you?

Do the people in your life bring you joy?

Do people in your life support you?

Do people in your life get to see the true authentic you?

Do the people in your life authentically love you? (meaning without expectations, judgement?)

These questions are so important to ask
yourself!

I was not living in authenticity!

I allowed others to verbally abuse me!

I allowed others to make me feel stupid!

I allowed others manipulate me and take advantage of me!

I allowed others make me hate myself!

Choose your circles well, I don’t allow others to make me feel any of these things anymore!
Healing your wounds from your trauma and past relationships really creates opportunity to find the right people to share your lives with!
Our energy is sacred, so allowing toxic energy in your space will indeed affect you in a negative way!

My question to you is are you satisfied with the life you are living?

Do you find peace, love and happiness in everyday?

Most people would think because I am single, no children, nothing to show in a physical form, that I would be unhappy, feel like I lack in life, feel incomplete! The truth is, that I absolutely love myself and my life! Yeah not everything is perfect, but it is part of the process, part of my lessons, part of my journey, and instead of thinking in a lack mindset, conditioned by society. I choose to see the gift in every moment! This life is a gift! I choose to embrace it and I smell the flowers everyday!

When things get challenging I take the tools I have learned and use them to navigate through each situation that comes my way. In reality, I called that situation to me for some kind of evolution within myself and I just embrace it! I can laugh at the silly things I do. I accept myself for who I am everyday and I have to say it is so freeing!

I choose to be FREE! Free in all aspects of my life, without attachment! It’s truly an amazing feeling!

Ain’t nobody loves me better, makes me happy, makes me feel this way!
Ain’t nobody loves me better, makes me happy, makes me feel this way, then ME!

I encourage you all to hop on this journey of life and LIVE IT!

Not just be on that hampster wheel that society wants you to keep running on jump off! I dare you too!

I am here to support you, while you learn to navigate through this! I truly mean that! It’s is my purpose, I am here to serve!

If you have experienced this from me, I would appreciate you sharing, as I truly want people to know that I do truly mean that! This s**t ain’t easy and I have been doing it hard core for 8 years now!

I have the most amazing people in my life now! I didn’t know how to be treated before, but trust me I won’t allow the behavior I endured before ever again! I know my worth, and choose to only surround myself with people who see me as well!
I enjoy holding space for people who are ready for this journey! It fills my soul to see people living their truth!

Come ride this ride while being supported!

Breathing is my new passion! I always knew it was important, but not like I do now! 💗🙏🧘🏼‍♀️

I decided to write this letter, as this is a exercise to release people who have been toxic to you in your life, that you want to forgive them and yourself! ❤️‍🩹I can’t really send this to her, but I wanted to let it out and feel free, and hopefully inspire others to write letters to people in their lives who have given them a heavy load to carry that is not serving them.🙏

To all my sisters who resonate with this. I love you 💕 I see you 😍I hear you 🤗and I support you! 🥰

My dear past friend I fully release and forgive you!🙏❤️‍🩹🥰

I don’t even know where to start, I have barely started and the emotions I am feeling are so extreme. 😭I would say besides one other person, you have probably been the most hurtful person in my life! I allowed this though, I take full responsibility for being your friend for as long as I did! Even though I allowed it, no one deserves to be treated the way you treated not just me, but others as well, but I would keep coming back for more. I loved you unconditionally. It makes me so sad that even as a child I didn’t love myself. 😢You always knew how to keep me at a lower vibration. I stood by your side through thick and thin. When we would fight and stop talking it hurt my heart. You did me dirty over and over again, and for some reason I always came back for more. You are a master manipulator at your core.

I always knew where it came from, as I have always been in tune with my intuition, still does not give you the right to hurt people intentionally, because you were feeling less than within yourself. You had the same limiting beliefs we had a trauma bond, the difference was I was a kind loving soul at my core, and somewhere along the way you lost that. You thought I was weak, less than, stupid. In reality, I was a loving, kind hearted, forgiving, loyal, strong friend! I just couldn’t see myself, until now! 🪞😍I allowed you to bully me, leave me out, abuse me emotionally and mentally. It affected me at my souls core, until now! ❤️‍🔥I have now found my inner empowerment, self love, my words, my confidence, my support within myself!! 🥰🙌🏼❤️‍🩹I won’t carry around this heavy baggage anymore! I will no longer give these limiting beliefs I have been carrying around hold me back from being me anymore!❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥

Now I am ready to be surrounded by beautiful soul sisters that support one another with love, have accountability, respect and appreciation! Relationships I have been yearning for a deep connection with likeminded women, who are doing the work to heal, love one another and collaborate and support in making our dreams come true! 🥰🌸🙌🏼A real sisterhood, where you can be silly, vulnerable, sad, and happy. Sisters where if I need a ear to listen, a hug they are there. 🤗I am ready to be seen as authentically me, and express myself freely in a loving compassionate way. Where I feel free to be transparent, to speak my truth, being heard and when there are things I want to express that may be uncomfortable for me to say, can be received with love and understanding! I have many sisters like this now, but I have been afraid to be vulnerable to receive the love I deserve. I will accept and receive now!🥰💗🤗

I forgive you as you are not as strong as you would like to be, you struggle to feel loved, you don’t feel accepted. You are constantly looking outside of yourself for what you truly need to feel within yourself!🥰❤️‍🩹🙏

I am honestly full of gratitude for our unhealthy friendship, as I wouldn’t be who I am in this very moment without this experience. Now I see the difference and can appreciate the sisters in my life now! 💗I love who I am becoming! 🪞😍If I had to go through the painful misconception about myself, to get here then I am thankful!🙌🏼

Now I am becoming brave, my voice is being heard, I am loved, I am held, I am respected, I am confident, I am strong! I thank you for these lessons, and I pray that you can find this for yourself someday! 🙏❤️‍🩹🥰With love, blessings, and forgiveness I release you and our energy connection for it is no longer needed, and I let go of this heavy load!