The MF Ghost

I dont like posting these long corney novels yall be posting but I got at least one in me lol.

For the past 8-10 years since I really got off the street, I’ve been in the worst place mentally while being the most financially stable I’ve ever been. Sh*ts crazy. When you are treated like an animal most of your existence and never had a parent or other guardians to teach you how to be a regular part of human society, that s**t can be overwhelming when its time to figure it all out yourself.
College is what really fu**ed me up honestly. That was the first time I was surrounded by people that had never been in and out of jail, sold drugs, hurt people, etc. and they definitely went out their way to show me how different I was. It made me more self conscious but that never really bothered me as much as how the people I’d looked out for most of my life started treating me.
Lost mad friends. Betrayed by most of them that are still alive, and just haven’t felt like repeating that with new people.
PTSD and Anxiety are real.
I’ve had songs finished for like 5 years I haven’t released just because I haven’t wanted to deal with all that. Plus the only song I let “friends” hear around the pandemic. 2 of them steal whatever they can from it. One steals a melody/line from the hook and another bit the whole idea and gave it to someone else being a hoe ass clout chaser… Trying to sabotage my whole movement before it even got moving.
It’s wild how people do you after you drop made resources, opportunities, and game on them, put money on their books when they’re down, just to be a solid person in their life in general. I’m over it now but I will never forget that s**t.
At this point in life I’m fine on my own but it’s impossible to accomplish everything I’ve set out to do with it without a solid team or group of friends around. That’s why I haven’t been as visually active like I used to be. It’s probably easy for someone who hasn’t dealt with my exact situation to just be like “get over it” but I’d be happy to see anyone else handle it any better with no judgement.
I’m not posting this to be like “I’m back” or some dumb s**t like that. Just clarification for the few that have asked and anyone else wondering.
I’m good. Better than ever in many ways, but I’m still working on myself. I feel like 8 years is a ridiculously long time to be trying to get it together but then I remember how many more resources, supportive family members, and friends most had around them for their first 18-21 years of life and I don’t feel so bad.
I’ve accomplished a lot. More than most from where I’ve came out of. And I plan to accomplish a lot more. It will just always be on my own time and in my own way.

For anyone who actually cares about me or supports what I do, or am trying to do I guess... You’re appreciated more than you’ll ever know, and I hope you can be patient with me while I teach myself how to do things that I have never been taught how to do before.

-Ghost

The MF Ghost
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