Surviving Suicide

I'll never forget getting that call 4 years ago, today. I remember hearing a continuous, blood curdling scream; only to realize it was me screaming. I couldn't believe the news I had just heard. I fell to the floor unable to feel my legs. My children just stood in fear & dismay as they had no clue what was wrong with mommy. I couldn't speak. I couldn't move. I was in sheer shock, my heart in pure agony. I just found out that you chose to leave us. I couldn't begin to wrap my head around what was happening. How could you be gone?! You barely began to live. This has certainly been a hell of a few years, Cory! I miss you more & more with each passing day! You took A piece of me with you that can never be replaced. You did, however leave me a piece of you! Your beautiful baby boy. I will cherish him with all my heart. I promised you when I said my final goodbye that I would make sure your baby was ok, I will continue to keep that promise; As long as there is breath in my lungs, he will be very well cared for! I love & miss you beyond words, Cory. May you continue to rest in peace, my sweet baby brother!

Pray for me today, y'all. ❤