One Day At A Time

November 25, 2025

I did not cry today.
That's how I finish my little journal now. And I think I'm finally ready to share that because maybe it will help someone else.

For a good while now I've been submerged under the dark waters of a personal situation which has shredded my heart to bits. Being a person who usually takes bold action, I tried every single idea or thought that came to me. I poured out my sorrow on close friends. And yes, I prayed. Not just daily, but constantly.

First I prayed for how this should be fixed. Then I prayed for God's will to be done. But the only word I kept getting was "wait". I finally realized that God has a plan for each of us. Not just me, but each of us.

So I continue on. Learning how to wait. Growing in patience. When it gets bad as it does in quiet moments, I let some tears fall. I started to see a therapist to keep myself on track. I have to continue to enjoy every day, even with this situation. I changed some things so that its not in my face continuously. I try very hard not to let it take me down to the bottom. I've been there and its too hard to come back up. So I take care of me and do what I can to help others.

Just as we use an umbrella to protect ourselves from the rain, I use my faith to protect myself from the pain that the dark cloud pours out. God has given me blessings to keep functioning: music, writing, friends, family, colors of nature, my beautiful dog, Rosie, His Word, Spiritual wisdom, and so much more.

I'm glad I studied the Bible and got to know Jesus so I can feel peace. Even though I walk with a dark cloud I know that the SON is still shining. I keep my eyes on Jesus as I run my race.

Life isn't going to give us everything we want. And that's part of the lesson. So appreciate what and who you have. After all, its almost Thanksgiving. So count your blessings and be thankful for them until they are louder than your complaints.

James 1:2-5
"My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing."

When you hurt yourself, you don't realize the ones who love you also feel the hurt. If you feel like killing yourself, the ones who love you die a death also. You might not think anyone loves you, but they do. Just because you don't feel loved doesn't mean their love for you stopped.