Fire Intuition

RIP Carter! 💔😢 I’m so heartbroken and honestly at a loss for words. I miss Carter more than I can explain. He wasn’t just my son, he was my best friend. My safe place. My constant.

He was so smart, so talented, and had his entire life ahead of him. We’ve been through so much together, and every single time I needed him, he was there for me. I am beyond proud of the young man he was becoming. From having good grades, playing sports, being in band, to cutting hair, he was finding his way and shining so bright. He had so many dreams and so much love to give.

The impact of losing Carter has been overwhelming. The schools had to bring in counselors not only to his middle school, but also to the high school, because so many students, teachers, and staff are hurting. His friends from last year, kids from the neighborhood, and classmates were all affected. Hearing how many people are struggling because of his loss breaks my heart all over again.

Yesterday I was told there were almost 50 kids surrounding our house. I wasn’t ready to hear that. I’m not ready to go back home. I’m not ready to face a world where he isn’t there.

There are moments where the pain is so heavy that I find myself thinking it should have been me instead. I’ve lived 39 years and Carter was just getting started. That thought alone is unbearable.

This pain is like nothing I’ve ever known. It takes my breath away. I’ve had moments where my body just shuts down because my heart doesn’t know how to carry this. For the first time in my life, I truly don’t know what to do.

I miss my son. I miss my best friend. My heart is shattered. I LOVE AND MISS YOU TWIN!!! 💔😢

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