GLAM GIRLZ 4 GOD

Hi GLAM Girlz. I want to share something from my heart.

God put this ministry/movement on my heart around 2009, and it took until now to come to fruition. In part because God wasn't done with me yet - He had a lot of work to do, and a lot of things/moments throughout my life that had to be dealt with. What I mean by that is - God was healing heart, so that I could reach out to others and show how His love works.

I think when we have been hurt at a very young age, it's hard for us to trust people, and for some reason, we don't really ever feel loved. I honestly don't remember a time that I truly felt loved when I was young. However, I wanted and craved to be loved, but didn't know how to go about getting love. Maybe some of you can relate to this.

The only time I ever felt worthy is when I over achieved in whatever I was doing. But even then, the performance ends and I was alone again, and feeling unloved.

God had to reach back in time from the first time my heart was hurt - until now, and mend every little tiny piece of brokenness (that I was), putting each little piece back together. Thankfully, God did this over time, because I don't think I would have made it had He done it all at once - it would have been too much to bear.

He showed me things that I didn't even remember - from the age of two until now. WHEW - This was hard! But once each piece slowly came together I felt better. Every bad memory, every hurt slowly melted away and I realized most of those things were not my fault. I think women keep the pain and internalize everything bad that ever happens to us, and if we don't release these things - they fester within us, and for some reason we grow up thinking it's ok to hurt us (whether intentional or not).

Now it was my time - I had to ask God to forgive those who hurt me. WHEW! even harder. But I did it. Some in person - some on paper, some I mailed, some I haven't, but in any case - I let it go!

Next the hardest of ALL. I had to forgive myself. Sounds easy, but it was/is not. It's easier to forgive others, but when it comes to ourselves - we are our toughest BULLY! But I did it, and still do it on a regular basis. FEELS AMAZING when you let it ALL go!

I didn't realize that I pushed people away from me until God started showing me all these things. I wanted love, but didn't really know what love was, and I now know why I reacted the way I have, it was because my heart was so broken.

Throughout this process God had shown me how much He really loved me, and always has. He created me in His image, He gave His only son for me, so that I can live forever. God's love is all I need and ever needed. Without His love - we really can't love anyone else, or ourselves.

I know this is long - but I want to end on this last note. God gave me a verse for us - for the GLAM Girlz 4 God.

1 John 4:16: And we have known and believed the love that God hath to us. God is love; and he that dwelleth in love dwelleth in God, and God in him.

I pray everyone reading this - that God will heal your heart, fill your heart with His abounding LOVE, and show you how much you are treasured by God. In Jesus name I pray - amen.