bessmorolpc

If we never accept our pain, suffering etc. Then how will we ever heal? I don't have a lot of words this week because of personal things I have going on. So that is all the words I've got for now, but expect more soon.

When I was deep into the postpartum days I was so tired, and foggy that I truly doubted my ability to be a mother. So much so I remember looking at my husband and saying "I'm not sure Jamie really needs me" and "I can ever do this again". ​​​​​​​​​.​​​​​​​​​.
This was 4 months into my postpartum journey, and my mental health (as you can guess from the statements above) was not doing so well. I was barely getting by. I cried so much in those first few months I thought I wouldn't make it to the other side, and on top of that I questioned if my exclusively breastfed baby really needed me, even though I was quite literally keeping him alive.
In this vulnerable moment, I am thankful my husband's response was neither to stop trying to breastfeed (because this was a huge struggle for the first 5 months of Jamie's life) or to stop co sleeping.
My decision to cosleep came before Jamie, and it still continues today. At the 4 month mark I was still waking up in the middle of the night to pump, because I was exclusively pumping at that point in our breastfeeding journey. On average I was getting 5 hrs of sleep a night. IT WAS SO HARD.
But quickly, just a month later, Jamie was able to exclusively breastfeed and I started quickly getting 7-9 hrs of sleep a night. Which continues to this day.
If i turned to sleep training during this difficult period, not only would my mental health been negatively impacted in the long run, but I am confident I wouldn't still be breastfeeding. Co Sleeping continues to be the best situation for us because it is how I get the most sleep at night, which positively impacts my mental health.
Sleep training is not a solution to a bigger problem, it's a bandaid to get women back to work and away from their child.

How would you define being a "progressive"? Tell be below. ​​​​​​​​​.​​​​​​​​​.
When it comes to old progressives and new there are some huge differences that I am seeing more and more everyday. Old progressives use to challenge things. They would challenge the govt, media, politics etc. Think Martin luther king. THEY QUESTIONED THINGS.
They were the movers and shakers of society. They said what is being done is not enough and called for change. But when I look at "progressives: today. They don't seem to be questioning much.
They just seem to be going along with what liberal media outlets tell them. If they are upset about something it is because the media told them to be. If they are progressive they have to be a liberal and stand by whatever the party decides.
Going along with whatever media, political party, govt says is no progressive. Challenging your thoughts, beliefs, and what you hear and see is progressive. So are progressives all that progressive anymore?
I want to live in a society that questions and challenges, not one that just goes along with whatever the media, politician, govt says you should go along with. If you consider yourself to be a liberal or conservative, that doesn't mean anything anymore.
What that means to me is whatever you are consuming on the daily made you identify that way. Not your actual thoughts, beliefs, values. Maybe we are just all being brainwashed.
When will we start challenging both sides of the political fence and refusing to fit into their boxes. I hope it's soon, and it sure as h*ll involves less polarization on both sides.
Thanks for coming to my ted talk. Bess