Kale

do not disturb

To endings & new beginnings
To always having my own back
To building a life no one can take away from me.

trust
faith
the ability to let go & let be

I am still working on keeping these feelings close to me when it is hard to see the bigger picture. feeling stuck may be worse than feeling lost. i feel like I am wedged between two mountains, two choices. i picture a path with two roads that bring different outcomes. one provides stability, financial security, uncomfortableness & lack of expression. the other is all about me, complete freedom & independence but comes with fear of the unknown. I feel like I am neglecting my own mission to live for the values of someone else. but who knows what’s best for me better than me? why have I let the opinions of others deter me from the experience I want for myself? choices. values. what is more important? living vicariously, fully, unapologetically for ME or choosing to contain my being for earthly securities. Meh.

with these overwhelming feelings arising, I am yearning to be back in the place that allows me to feel the most free. I miss being surrounded by an environment that encourages my souls mission & passion and not one that tries to contain it. I miss this moment, I miss feeling like me, and most of all I miss the feeling of not constantly wanting to be somewhere else.