Taylor Amethyst

Some cheeky island film archives 🌴🌺🥰🎞📸

Going in full-time to work for yourself is immensely freeing, and immensely isolating (especially right now) and full of heartache and struggle.

I’ve been so insecure about these feelings of inadequacy and confusion and paralysis that I haven’t really shared much on here about my *feelings.* (like I normally do lol)

The truth is you guys, the person you see on this app, in these photos & captions, is different from the girl in real life.

People who know me in person know that I struggle. I’m constantly asking questions, constantly seeking answers outside of myself, and within. It’s not easy. But I am joyful! And also painfully insecure at times too.

I don’t even realize it, but I filter this image of freedom and joy and light, while at the same time I feel trapped a lot, and scared a lot, and in darkness a lot.

So if you are feeling there too, it’s ok. I understand. I see you, I feel you. You’re not any less successful because you have intense emotions sometimes or a lot of the time. It’s ok to be human, it’s beautiful to be human.

So remember when you’re scrolling through these tiny squares that what you see is rarely reality. I’ve been doing my best to show up as authentically as possible on here, but I know I can always do better.

I have no interest in curating a dream for you all, as much as I thought that that was what Instagram is about.

To me, it’s about connection and storytelling.

You can’t have a good story without some plot twists, right?

Nothing’s happy and shiny all the time. Find the shiny parts that you can. Create them, for yourself and for others as much as possible.

I love you,

Tay

P.S. Share a shiny part of your day with me? Mine was a sweet walk with my mama & a run this morning 🤍🥰