Prince Jonathan

My brain thinks it's safer to jump off the edge and die than go through the struggle of life building a bridge…
I have lived a Good life so it doesn’t make sense for my brain to want to retreat. In fact, my middle-class background was the safest place I could be. It gives you a sense of working hard to keep your life “Level”. I grew up working hard because YOU valued me, YOU judge my wins and loses, and I made YOU happy.
My Mind wanted more. And my Brain hated me for it.
My surroundings wanted me to be safe. I didn’t grow up with enough talent (people could see) to see a SUPER clear path for my life. They knew I would rise to their level of success. Even my acting was “Good” but not “Great”. I could work hard for YOUR APPROVAL but something was always left on the table…
Love for myself, Unconditional love from God. See from a young age it was more about winning YOUR APPROVAL than it was APPROVING MYSELF, not having CONFIDENCE in myself.
YOU WERE MY GOD and everything was based on conditional love.
The struggle, even today is still real. I still fall victim to the pressure of working hard for YOU.
The Biggest problem with working hard is when you don’t achieve what the outside force wants you to achieve, you still pay the price.
But when you’re a HARD WORKER than the price you pay opens the doors for more, because it is not predicated on others' approval, external results, or the PRIZE. Being a HARD WORKER, you see the results as stepping stones, as what you set the bar to be, the measure meant is internal and it creates the validation you need not the other way around.
I wanted to DIE, yes I said it. I didn’t give a s**t because I wasn’t who I was supposed to be; I, taking full responsibility, was rooted in WHO YOU THOUGHT I WAS SUPPOSE TO BE. I finally gave up and said “Either we do the HARD WORK to create the MAN that God is calling me to BE. Or we die an average existence”.
It’s time for YOU to back off the edge! It’s time for YOU to put yourself in area’s that encourage growth, it’s time for YOU to CREATE the Greatness focus point YOU are meant to run wholeheartedly after. It’s time to have your BLINDSPOTS exposed to YOU, so YOU can BE the HIGHEST VERSION OF YOU!
YOUR NOT ALONE, BACK OFF THE EDGE AND CREATE YOUR BRIDGE!

It's ok to agree, it's ok to disagree and it's ok to be in the middle. IT IS NOT OK TO HATE.

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