Boysee

Late to the game on posting some October Art Prompts. Still time to join, the prompts are pretty inspiring, check out . The prompt was “crooked”

As a child, I loved my suburban city life. But in fourth grade my parents moved us out to the country. It felt cold and isolating. I never really figured out how to fit in and I was bullied in school. Some people say the things you’re teased for are eventually what make you special.

My mom gave up her career in country music to raise our family. She has an incredible gift and I know it was something she loved. The night my highschool grunge band packed out our local coffee shop, I realized my destiny was to become a successful musician…

15 years and a few bands later, I quit music. I didn’t know why, but I was really unhappy. I was fixated on success, but had no idea what that meant. Was it touring with sold out shows, getting signed, creating my magnum opus? None of those things were happening and, worse, I did not enjoy making music anymore. Something needed to change. I conceded that maybe I wasn’t special and it was time to figure out how to be a regular person.

Nothing could have prepared me for how hard giving up music would be. Telling people I used to be a musician filled me with existential dread. I was on autopilot at work and in my relationship for years. I was depressed.

Then a few years ago, I took a beginner’s acting class. Watching myself on camera for the first time was exciting. I was terrible. I didn’t care. It meant, with practice, I would see so much improvement! In my advanced class, I finally gave a performance I was proud of. I’d rediscovered the joy in making art.

I didn’t want to live my life feeling like I hadn’t given my dream its best shot. I saved up some money, moved into a small place, and quit my job. It’s been almost a year and I have not been happier.

To be honest, I don't know what I’m doing. Will this post help me gain fans? Who knows? There is no certainty. Only faith that if I tirelessly aim to do my best work, to improve, and to lay bare all vulnerabilities that I will connect with someone like you.

HINDSIGHT, the name of my debut album, represents my first contribution to inspiring artists, similar to how listening to dreamy bands such as the Appleseed Cast and the Album Leaf inspired me. Not sure if that was what they intended for their music, but I’m grateful for their work.

Thank you for taking the time to read this. Please support me by pledging to get your copy of HINDSIGHT on vinyl here: https://hallowedriver.com/ -vinyl

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