Run Like Wild Things Photography

I've never had much of an open door
To this house that I inhabit, you're welcome to visit
But I keep most of me locked up on different floors
Quiet with my business, my silent disposition
So maybe you should find another home to settle in
'Cause I'm never gonna be the one to show you everything

But if you stay
Well, you might find something someday

'Cause I'm alive, but I'm so fu***ng anxious, I could die
What a perfect illustration of my life desire
And no amount of painting could ever hide
All the breaks in my foundation, so I lie
Yeah, everything is fine

I wish you could know me

And I wish I could know you much more sometimes
Wish I could do nothin' with you
Sit in the yard while the day dies, leave it all on the table
And I'll say, "I love you, " and mean it this time
Say, "I'm sorry for everything else"
If we found a way to the other side
I'd be willing and able.
Id be willing and able 💔

My first birthday without you just made me realize how much I fu**in hate it here. It hasn't gotten better. And I keep getting angrier. I hate who I am without you and I hate life without you. Its bull s**t and I hate that you died. I hope youre up there laughing at what a fu***ng joke this has all been.