Sober Rebels

It was never about the alcohol.

That was just my coping mechanism of choice.

The actual problem was me.

I had unresolved trauma I wasn’t dealing with.
I had crippling anxiety and depressive seasons.
I felt unsafe in my own body after some weird medical events.
I had very low self-worth and confidence physically and emotionally.
I never fit in and alcohol was a way for me to feel accepted and loved.
I harbored a lot of guilt and shame around my s*xual past and promiscuity.
I wasn’t doing purposeful work so I felt uninspired and hopeless for the future.
I had toxic relationships that I didn’t have the strength to get out of without feeling guilty.

I didn’t like myself.
I didn’t like my life.

And alcohol was a way for me to constantly escape, self-sabotage, and subconsciously accelerate a little faster toward the end of it.

I know that’s deep but that’s the reality of addiction.

It is f*cking deep.

It's never as simple as “just put down the bottle”.

Because once you stop drinking, you realize what’s actual inside of you…and sometimes that demon is just too big to even know how to fight.

As I sit here 5 years sober I can confidently tell you this…

The fight is worth it.

It's not easy.
It's downright f*cking ugly sometimes.
It will test every part of your resilience and your commitment to saving yourself.

But the confidence and mental fortitude that you come out with on the other side of sobriety…is indescribable.

Because when you realize you are the problem, you also simultaneously recognize that you are the solution.

You can actively choose to heal and level up…just like you actively chose to use.

You have the power to write your comeback story, one chapter at a time, and nobody can take that from you.

Make it an epic f*cking story…that’s my plan.

You can invest now in your wellness or pay later for your illness.
It really is a choice.
And both require your time, energy, and money. 🤟🏼