Kennedy Shea Collins

36 painful months 😞

To my dearest granddaughter Kennedy Shea

I am writing this letter to you today, despite the pain of not being able to see you. I cherish the six years we had together, filled with laughter and joy, and I know Popop feels the same way. Now, more than ever, Popop needs you, as he is going through a tough time with his health.

Never did I imagine that I would have to write a letter like this - a letter to the person who brings me the most joy, yet I am not able to see. When I envisioned my life as a Oma, I saw us sharing countless moments of happiness - from enjoying ice cream on a hot summer day to reading together before bed, and creating memories that only we would understand.

I dreamed of us jumping in puddles together, planting a garden that we could tend to together, staying up late on Christmas Eve, and waking up early on Christmas morning. I loved being a part of every aspect of your Dads life - from meals, to school activities, to sporting events. I was always there, cheering him on, and I couldn't wait to do the same for you, my dear. I was your Dad's biggest supporter, and I couldn't wait to be yours too.

All I ever wanted was to be a Oma, and to have you in my life. You are everything I dreamed of and more - with your bright eyes and beautiful smile. You are the answer to all my prayers, and I am so grateful to have you in my life. You look just like your Dad, and it fills my heart with joy.

Even though we are apart, know that you are always on my mind and in my heart. My arms may be empty, but my heart is full of love for you. I may not be able to see you, but I can feel your presence in my life. You are my everything - my heart beats for you, my pride and joy, my precious and beloved granddaughter.

The recliner that I envisioned us sitting in, rocking and snuggling, may be empty now, but hopefully it will be filled again soon. The lamp next to it may be off, but it will shine bright again when we are together. I have put away the blankets I made for you, the crafts we did together, and the movies we watched, but they will come out again when we are together.

Even though we can't be together right now, I want you to know that you are loved more than words can express. You are the light of my life, and I am so grateful to be your Oma. I know that this separation is not forever, and I hold onto that hope. The Lord will bring us back together again soon, and until then, I will hold you in my heart. Grandma keeps us apart.

The wait may be hard, but it is worth it. You are my happiness, my life, my everything. You are my princess, Kennedy Shea.

With all my love, Oma, Popop, and your Dad's family. We all miss you so much.

Our princess with her sister Nevaeh Knott in Wilmington NC

Its been 3 yrs since they kidnapped you away but we found you. The Lord will bring us together soon. There is no greater weapon than to walk with Jesus. Your Daddy loved Jesus and thanked him every day for you. You were his greatest gift. As you suffered withdrawal from he**in he would rock you all night long.

Dillon Shea Collins father of Kennedy.

Portia misses you Kennedy

We Miss You xoxo Oma and Poppop