Honey Raye

I felt normal today…

I walked the longest distance I have in the last 3 months!

My family held my hand each step of the way. These are the memories I cherish with them. No matter how slow I had to go they created a little circle around me and shuffled their feet in support.

We went clothing shopping because I quite literally had a mental break down. I’ve gained 10 lbs and with my new port…

Absolutely nothing that I use to wear can be worn anymore.

My daughter curled my hair today because I am nervous as hell to lift my arms with my new port. I’m still healing. And I’m thankful my kids are ready to step in and help where they can.

I use to hide my illness from them. But I realized I was robbing them of so much time with me. Robbing them of compassion. And so much more…

And although I don’t believe they deserve a sick mom and I’m still coming to terms with this reality….

They deserve the best version of me. Which is why I decided to go on the pump 24/7. It’s been 3 years since I have been able to play with them as a mom should…

And I’m fighting every day to get better to give the best version of myself to my family.

I want to say thank you for everyone who’s left comments and support. I truly appreciate it. I don’t have the energy to respond to everyone. But know I am blown away with how you view me and my ability to share my journey.

I just want to remind you that you’re not alone in how you feel. No matter how big/small or stupid it feels to have a reaction over something…

Your feelings are valid ✌🏽✨

I never want you to feel discouraged because you don’t feel like you have the “adequate equipment”.

Reminder that we all start somewhere. Your phone is enough to capture your confidence boost!

My DIY guides, teaser videos, or reels give instructions based on you using your phone as your camera.

This image was taken with my phone. To prove that you can take an amazing photo….even if it’s just using your phone.

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