chikaa

Here’s the thing. I’m just an ordinary person living an average life. I have one job and sometimes struggle with my finances. Most of the time I’m lost in overthinking and procrastinating. I still feel fear of the unknown and uncertainty of life. If you think I have it all figured out? I don’t. Though I know what I want and how to have it, I sometimes feel like I want more. From time to time, I still feel lost even though I know I am on the right track towards my dreams. Yes. You’ll hear me giving positive pieces of advice here and there. You’ll see me smiling and laughing and you’ll think I have it all in my hand all figured out. You might give a side note that I’m not struggling in life and your experience is far worse than mine so I wouldn’t understand any of your pain. If you look at me, I’m pretty sure you’ll wonder If I even experienced any hardship in life. And that’s why I don’t care for what most people think about me in any possible way. Because they didn’t know all those silent battles I fought, silent screams of help, silent cries of begging to make the pain stop, and a silent wish for someone to save me. Trust me, you wouldn’t want to experience those events. But hey, remember we all have different stories and different ways of survival. If you see someone, who is so positive about life and wants to share the light with everyone. She’s not bragging about having a positive life. Most of the time she’s reminding herself to be grounded even though the world is breaking her heart. So please be kind. And stop comparing yours mine