By Dee

Another attempt at trying to find forgiveness and also writing ✨

As the evening arrives per usual
You start to ponder over the events.
The day today, yesterday, a month, a year
Mistakes, regrets, and everything you fear

You've reached the point of no return
no longer can you run away
Demons haunt your every turn
the choice your left is to kneel and pray

You seek the heavens for repentance
to wash away the sins you've made.
You ask forgiveness, you pray acceptance
Hoping for your debt to be paid

-Visitor

A poem for the advocacy of Mental Health ✨

Let's talk about mental health
It's not as easy as 1 2 and 3
The whole world should know this
So everyone suffering can be free

Let us break this stupid stigma
About people saying it's fine
Or just go to church and pray
So that the dark will turn to sunshine

Go talk to a therapist
Go talk to a shrink
Not everything can be solved by a prayer
People please just effin think.

I'm not denying that God can't help
I'm not saying that he's not the answer
But please bear in mind
"Nasa Diyos ang awa, Nasa tao ang gawa"

Stand up for yourselves
You're not alone in this fight.

-Sikolohiya
-Visitor

I wanted to just disappear
Out of sadness, Out of fear
Just me myself and I
If I can leave or just die.

Its not because I don't want to leave
But its because reality had me deceived
Walking lifelessly, hollow without a goal
I wonder why I don't have the soul.

I am tired of these faces waiting for me to fail
A crowd waiting for the ship that is going to sail

To the stormy winds and raging seas
Waiting for me to drown, as they please.
Praying like its in the movie of titanic
A ship that still drowns even if its gigantic

Everyday I wake up like a mess
Even you see me how well I dress
My mind is still jumbled, like a typhone is still going
Did my very best even if I don't know what I am doing.

I just wanna disappear and leave everything behind
To a place that is so hard to find
Leaving my lovers and failures of yesterday
And find a meaning to live everyday

No eyes to look at my every turn
No whispers of my name that is making my ears burn
No expectations that are as high as mountains
A place where happiness is like a fountain

Please I just wanna disappear
Somewhere far away from here
No one who knows me, and a place so well hidden
Where I can start over my life again

-flowerlaces