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TODAY LAST YEAR

Today last year I graduated from the secondary school of life to the University of Life
Today last year I started my lectures on human behavior, expectations and reality.
Today last year I started the journey on the measurement of my strength and weaknesses
Today last year I started learning how to use forgiveness to pay for my happiness
Today last year everything changed totally.
This day I lost friends and family
This day I realized how much I meant in the hearts of people
This day, I became a political pawn being tossed around for selfish gain
This day I became lost and shattered.
I never realized how lonely I was until this day.
The laughter and joy in me gradually faded
Day after day a dark shadow of my self
I became exposed to pure hatred from those who claimed to care
This day began 5 long months of continuous torture and sabotage
Hiding in the bathroom to stare at the stranger in the mirror became a norm
The stranger gradually took over the reality of the real person
What was left was a lost soul
The daily activities gradually became jail term
No pride, no self-esteem just a slave.

Giving up would mean accepting the slavery
Giving up was what was expected
Giving up seemed like the easiest way out
Giving up looked like freedom
Giving up was just giving up

For some, they lose themselves, loose their happiness,
They lose their hopes, they lose their self esteem
They stop fighting, they just want to run away and hide
They get swallowed by the storm
I kept drowning and just wanted to let go
The tunnel got darker.
The quicksand sunk faster

Yes, my strength and weakness were tested.
I wasn’t strong I was weak
But a stronger force never gave up, it kept me sailing

Through the life training, real friends began to emerge,
Trusting became natural again
The goal became clearer and must be achieved
LIVE AND SUCCEED…. That’s the goal
Living everyday as happy as I can
Hunger and thirst for success became my addiction.
And Succeed I did
Against all pains and tears
I held on to the stronger force for strength

This day last year would have been the last of me
All it took was the carelessness of another individual
This day this year might have been a year’s remembrance of my loss
Some would have remembered to mourn
Some would have forgotten and just lived on
But such never happened
My cute legs are intact
My beautiful face and head unhurt
My life unharmed

This day last year had a direct confirmation the stronger force never slumbers
From this day last year till this day this year, He is same
I lost all and regained in 1000 folds
Multiplying daily
This day this year God began the story.
JOB 42 : 12

My heart is as wild as a lion
Taming it becomes a mission
The mission must not be impossible
Or else this wild cat would roar loud.
Its meant to roar.
Its true nature can't be hidden.
But it can be tamed to go for the real prey.
The wilder it gets the harder d mission.
Am loving this wild cat over and over again
Its spirit can't be broken
It has stopped weaving dreams and wants to live a wild real life.
Its my wild cat
And am gonna let it lose.
Am gonna make it savour the taste of freedom
This cat is gonna get wings to fly
And its gonna flow like a river
No more stopping
No more dreams but a sharp awakening to being what I want.
Watch out as d cat is let lose
Its wild and untamed
Its my wild cat
Its my heart
Its me.