Vida

An honest conversation.

"I stayed away because I was beginning to hate you, I'm sorry but I had to. I was jealous of you, because it feels like you have everything, almost everything any girl could ask for. But not me, I always have to crack everything before getting anything and most times I don't even get it, and even if I try it's never like yours".

Non-fiction!
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Because I was permitted to make an awareness out of this, beautiful "settled" story.

Have you ever been in this kinda shoe, times when you honestly couldn't help but feel alittle bit jealous about somebody's life, cause it feels like they don't have any problem and their life is just perfect?!

Well sweetheart, that idea right there in your brain and heart are just the devil's ingredients for a bitter and jealous life.

Admire people! But please I want you to understand that no one has it all figured out, not even your Godly models, not even our fathers in faith or the Godly media personalities you look up to.

I feel really angry when I hear words from the above confession, Like do you really think this life is as perfect as it looks?. No doubts that we are HELPED by God, no doubts that this people have areas of life working perfectly and you are yet to figure out yours, but did they really wake up to a perfect life?.

The relationship you Soo admire, did you know what it took to finally have it settled, would you like to hear their stories of storms and uncertainty? The pain of sacrifices and heart hurts?.

You think they have a perfect family? How about you getting to listen to the story behind the fires you are seeing, what if they let you in so you'd understand that they had to sacrifice alot of things that would have broken you too.

You think she's just too intelligent, and everyone adores her? Should we tell you how she stays up reading her brain out, or Maybe we should tell you stories of her mother's fasts that led to Ulcer, or the sacrifices of her father , the price they paid before and after she was born.

Or we should list out the sacrifices she made on her knees, while men slept, she toiled grounds to replant, uproot and groan for a new reign, character, understanding beyond the emotions glued to FIRE and prayer.

What am I saying?

There's nothing you desire to have, according to God's will that you won't have if only you are ready to pay the sacrifices. Not too many people talk about their scars and wounds, but a lot of us have the habits of blowing our trumpets.

Behind ever desire, I want you to know that it has the potential of becoming jealousy, envy and hate untill you learn to also seek and desire the labour that brought the Favour, the sacrifices that pruned the sweet wine you see, the scars that birthed your HERO!

In an indomie generation, where no one wants to pay the price like those they admire, we have people full of hate and jealousy, the devil cages them this way so the multiplication of the power and possibilities that they desire would never happen.

People are paying prices and making great sacrifices. But you are too much in love with a t**h and stress-less life, alot of you are wearing tommorow's cloth now, eating tommorow food now and definitely would starve when tommorow comes. But then you'll be among the many others hating on people who walked with timings and seasons.

I love that you admire and honor people.
But each time you catch yourself asking why God loves them more than you, be responsible enough to go to God and also ask ; " what must I do too, lord"?

If they have it, you can too. But if your striving to have it is for competition and envy, again, you'll do all the doings and you'll only birth frustration!

You admire, and you also want to make Jesus smile, like they are doing.
This is the goal! Now pay the price too.
Ask questions, knock and seek.

BUT PRIDE!


Nataph Vida 💙🦋

When I was much younger, I'd cry and eat all eatables just to grow tall and fat , because I hated the compliment of "you look sooo small "...

Lolzzz,a long time after these sessions,
I met this really funny girl who made it a duty to walk up to me all the time with disbelief written all over her face , like my age and body don't match 😂
She'll say " but why are you sooo small "

This time, and one day I knelt down on my altar and prayed like I was MAD !!. I found out that it's an abomination to be small in body and still be small in destiny!! As much as it is terrible to be big in size and be small in manifestation and fire!
I had told God I wasn't interested in the increase in size , the groan is that my fire be increased!!.
I'm no longer interested in the big bums and shapes , I want the enlarged capacity and power !!.

I don't eat to take off the " extremely skinny" compliments anymore, dear ma !! I fast my lungs out to break off the chains and veils in my generation!!.
If I should receive height let it be in the spirit!!.
It's okay to have the tiny voice, the thing is demons shouldn't give the same compliments too !!. I want you to see me and still call me smallish, but my desire is that spirits run out of places when I appear!

Because ma'am ... Small Bodies carry fire too !! And skinny bodies are taking down territories!.
I love how that , I go for prayer meetings and talks , and there's Soo much hope in the eyes of young and little ones , they see such a small and skinny lady , praying with Soo much audacity and dispensing Soo much words !! If this small girl can ! Then they too can do moreee !!!.

I pray one day , you'll be able to tell God to leave the beauty and fame ... And give you fire !!. I pray one day , you'll have the audacity to push that plate of your favorite dish away and dare to embrake on destiny fasts !!.
I pray one day , the same passion and even more ,the same consistency and even more that you pour on oriflam and longerich products, you'll pour them on your Spiritual life too !.

I pray that the way you abstain and stay addicted to particular foods just for a particular desire of growth , may you also get hungry enough to chew the word and pray ,get addicted to destiny recipes till you break forth the light inside you!!.

I see how much Energy people Chanel to negative compliments about their body!
If only you'll sit down and see that worms will feed on that skin but not your Spirit and impact !!.
If only you'll sit down to see that , Katherine kulman was not God's favourite person, she didn't just touch power in a day .... The first thing on the list that changed was PRIORITY AND GOALS !

I'm not asking that you remain skinny,lolz
Or you should neglect your skin care and all, ( yh , you're relieved now😂)...
But you know what I am talking about!
Alot of you idolize your body more than your destiny!!.

And for a long time God has been saying... "What if you turn this attention on something else , what if you channel this energy on destiny!!.. what if you understand that there's a greater call than flesh and that disadvantage?..

You should slay !! And it should start from the spirit!!
We want to see the skinny bodies on fire !
We want to see the fat bodies taking down walls, we want to see the short one pulling down heights!!. The one who thinks she's ugly birthing hunger into souls. I don't know how well to dispense this !!.

But for Soo long, you've locked destiny up in that mere clay !!!. Aren't you worth much more !!. Aren't you capable of greater things!!.
Go ahead and be a blessing, let's see if men will compliment your flesh and body or your impact!!. Let's see if generations will remember your fresh and shaped body or fire and power!.

Change your gaze ,fix your priorities straight!!.

Nataph Vida 💙🦋