Sara.M Design

Prompt 2: get dressed up
My boyfriend's shirt, my mum's skirt, my hair accessory
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Dressing up has been quintessential in my life. From making dresses for my dolls to making clothes for my little sister and myself, I have always loved playing around with the concept of expression through garments.
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I wanted to do that as a job.
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I studied fashion design for 3 years and then took on unpaid or very poorly paid jobs in the industry for another 3 years, just to get closer to my dream.
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But along the way that sweet feeling of excitement turned into resentment, loathe and anger.
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When you get close to anything, you start seeing the flaws in it, the dark side, and only after that can you trully say if it's worth it or not.
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I have seen the ugly and my dreams have been shattered.
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I am still hurt. I feel betrayed and lost. Fashion was part of my life just like my family or my friends are.
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"How could it be like this? How could it deceive me like this for so long? How could it do this to me after I have been so dedicated and loyal?"
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Fashion as it is, it's not worth it for me. I had to cut it out of my life. Almost like cutting your own limb due to cancer. It's for the better, but still very painful.
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Who knows, maybe one day I will get back to it. When the wound heals and It changes its ways.
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@ Manchester, United Kingdom