Demi and Dogs

Crafts is something I’ve really got into recently. Allowing my mind to fully switch off and just concentrate on one thing. Wasn’t sure if to add this as one of my work vids. But unintentionally part 12 on the 12th day at nearly 12pm just made sense🤍 I can’t believe it’s been 1 year without you Dad 🪽 Still feels surreal to me that I come under the category of someone who’s lost a parent. I’ve been thinking about you so much recently. I know you’ll so annoyed at yourself for everything you’ll miss out on in mine and my brother’s lives, because I know despite everything we were the center of your world. It’s so sad that throughout my 20s we didn’t know each other anymore. We had been through so much together before this. I still feel like one day you’ll knock on my house and say it was all just a joke. You were the biggest wind up. I took this tree from your flat when we cleared it out. I couldn’t leave it behind knowing it was in the room when your soul last was and could be somehow attached to it. I revamped it recently to bring it back alive, even though I know it won’t bring you back it gives me some comfort at home. You were so good at art too. You were good at everything actually. I’ve had a resin bird made from your ashes I’m going to put in the basket. I know it was you who visited me 3 times around your death, I’m absolutely certain. While I was up to 3am decorating your tree I randomly listened to We Need To Talk - Michelle Heaton podcast and wow it couldn’t have been more perfect. Sounds weird but it felt like a healing process during those hours. Although I still can’t dance to our song yet I’m hoping one day I’ll be able to again. You really were one of a kind dad. A person that’s hard to even describe with words. Love and miss you always🤍