Nature Dei

Me sharing my future visions (of how to change the world) to a friend.
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WOW. My last video was involved in one of the University's (SMU, Dallas) "Writing and Critical thinking skills" program as an example of a scout mindset essay.

Years and years ago, I was an A-level student, and as nerdy as it sounds, hearing praises from a lecturer just melts my heart, haha!

On a more serious note, I know - it's the try, not the result that should matter, Stoics would remind me. But as a not-a-perfect human being, I appreciate such rewards a lot, because it also reminds me that dedicated hard work that feels right and exists along with your values is worth the effort.

This channel is definitely an endurance project. Thanks for being with me.

P.S. If you have friends who are hardcore-vaccine-hesitancy critics, I think my last video is worth sharing. As a pro-vaxxer, I as well, need to remind myself of the facts from my own video while having a chat with a vaccine doubter.

COVID Vaccine Hesitancy...Is Actually Reasonable? | Long Form Video If you like my videos, please become my Patron here:https://www.patreon.com/naturedeiBefore we start: 1) I am pro vaccines. I do trust in science. 2) This vi...

Feb 12th I turned 30.
I was supposed to have kids by this time (perhaps 2 + the third one on a way). And a very well-paid math/management-based job. And a good car. And a mortgage. A lot of business dresses. All of this was inevitable in my head ten years ago. I thought success and happiness have well-known paths. Whom am I kidding - I didn't think this. I DIDN'T THINK AT ALL about that! It was simply "how it's supposed to be".

But that's the difference between me in my 20th and me in my 30th. If during my 20's I questioned the exterior more, now, in addition, I question interior - myself - a lot.

And it's brilliant! It's annoying too, haha, but it's brilliant. I'm basically fighting my own ignorance. Tough fight as first the ignorance must be found.

I'd call it a good hunt though.

So, in the latest hunt, I asked myself - why the hell, I was sure I gonna be a mum one day.

When I was a kid, my happiest moments were playing with lego and cars. Saving imaginary animals from the sinking imaginary boat. Jumping after grasshoppers (weird and lovely, I know).

I never liked playing with baby dolls (and later real babies) that much. It just felt weird and unnatural.

"One day it will come", I kept telling myself. "I will want to become a mother!". Hmm.

But why did I need to? Where did this idea come from?

The decision of having or not having a child is the hardest one in our lives because it is irreversible.

For some it's obvious. They want/need kids as much as I need my Taiga (dog). For others, it's also obvious - they hate them (which is weird and makes me want to remind them that they were kids too).

But for some, and I am included in this group too, it's just a super hard decision as it's probably gonna be ok either way.

So, how to make this decision and how to not regret it - in the latest video.
It's quite entertaining too, btw. My first proper sketch. Have fun watching! https://youtu.be/DpqcnQVmHIA

Before you go - what's your story? Is/was it a hard or easy decision?

Stay healthy!
Dei

We all have our stories. Our own dramas, our own tragedies. And often we say "life wasn't fair".

But life, often is actually NOT unfair (notice, not saying it's fair either!). It might be random, or it might mean we are entitled. One might get cancer after serving his/her all life as a doctor/volunteer/nurse. Nature sometimes is so random that it's hard to comprehend.

Sometimes we work extremely hard and get...like my mum likes to say - a p**p on the stick. Aka - nothing. Feels so unfair, but is it...? Some things just happen and are indeed fair (even if the innate feeling is quite opposite).

Though sometimes s**t is real.

Sometimes life IS indeed unfair.

I watched Flint Town Water Crise story - the governor decided to supply fresh water to GM car factory, but lead-poisoned water to Flint Town people (nice job, you greedy spoiled terrible creature).

Then I had heard The Guardian podcast of Noor's story. How Yemen women have no rights and can be forced to marriage at any age (yes, any)...and then about the multi-sided civil war, that many people don't even know is happening.

It would be stupid to think life is fair or unfair, black or white. It's colored, but it's worth learning how to separate these colors. In my latest video - on everything I've mentioned before.
https://youtu.be/wlXykQO1kHM