Held by Huda

Sneak peak of what I have been doing. I’ve done a photo shoot, upgrading my website, refining who I am, and why I do things.

Now I’m taking single shots of my products for my online store.

I have been taking small step each day for the last 9 months to build my self confidence and love. I’ve been reflecting on how to share that with you.

I’m excited to share more over the coming weeks, so keep an eye out for Held’s small but expressive stories.

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1. Purple and pink graphic white t-shirt
2. Dream collection acrylic canvas that’s used as my backdrop.

Sometimes s**t just keeps happening! And all your able to do is hide under your blankets. Just like a kid you dive into your bed, grab the corner of your cover and drop it over your head.

You pray that by doing this your able to drown out the noise, the fear of watching everything around you be ruined.

And then after a while you realize your over heating, it’s getting hard to breathe, and your bored out of your mind. So you grab the blanket making you look like a tent, and quickly rip it off your head.

Only now your hit with a cold rush of air and your lungs are grasping for fresh air. After a moment the rush in your body subsides from the drastic change. And for a moment you look around, with a feeling of pure bliss. Only it never lasts, it quickly disappears as you look around.

But it awaits seems like just enough of a spark! You find yourself standing again forgetting your moment of panic. And your taking another step into your unknown.
April 22, 2021 6:37pm

From my collection.
I painted this #2018. This and the other I painted was a process that pushed me to quite life later in #2019 to learn how to rest, heal and dive deep into who I am and where I want to go in life.

I’ve learned how to silence the voices that called me lazy, useless, etc. They still show up from time to time, but they no longer have the hold on me they once did.
I’ll let them visit for a min, but they are not allowed through the door. They stay on the front porch, tell me their nonsense and then I ask them to leave.

It’s not always easy, when my mental health is declining, but because I took the time to do the work and heal what made me feel broken, I’ve gotten stronger in my resolve to listen to my inner voice. She reminds me to take a moment, breathe, and remember that I don’t believe the bulls**t coming from the past.

It’s time to let your dreams take over. Let them push you through a life path you haven’t imagined. Let your self feel everything, allow yourself to shed the layers that root you in place.

My goal this week is to express myself more creatively. Leave a comment with one thing you are working to shed this week!

Sometimes words can express what you feel. So we use art.
This is today’s