Addictions under Control

I have walk in your shoes
Been addicted really young to the food and having my first Hangover at nine years old, I always been addicted to something most part of my life. Sober of Alcohol since 1989 with a 12 Step program, have paved my life to the search of Why.
Why I am addicted and why I have moved from one addiction to others and sometimes a mix and match of some of them. Food, alcohol, s*x, pot, co***ne, Ghb etc.
The12 Steps program has answered a lot of my questions, but why I was not happier, the 12 steps sponsor didn't work for me, too much advises and talking from them. I didn't feel heard.
Why the relapse with other substance or compulsive behavior, something was missing. I denied a part of who I was. That part that has been s*xually abused at four and nine years old, mentally abused by my father and r***d at 13 years old. I didn't know that my addiction was keeping me safe to feel and accept what I went through has a child. My addictions were a gateway to feeling the shame and the pain.
I was stock until I start to work with a psychotherapist and an Addiction coach.
I learn to love my self and to believe II was loveable to the point that I got married ten years ago.
Reflecting on what I want to do with my life, one of my goals was to turn in a positive way all the trauma that I been through in something positive, so all that suffering would have been vain
So I decided to become a Certified Addiction /Recovery coach and help people who have an addiction to have a better life and reach some happiness.
Let me help you to Control your addiction.
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