mscowell

I have been a bit absent from socials lately , it's good sometimes, we have been busy but this post in particular has stalled my process. It's been written and re-written several time. You see, we said our final goodbye to our Lucy a couple weeks ago, here is part of my love letter to her. This is part of a process that helps me grieve.

Dear Lucy,
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Your death has left my heart wounded. A wound that will become a scar to add to the others. It is still fresh and so are the tears.
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We welcomed you into our home shortly after G was born (not recommended). Petite and timid with a mind of your own, a lab that doesn't swim for example. You are by far the most challenging dog we have had and the most reluctant to trust me in particular. I get it nail trims and ear cleanings are not fun. I do know in your final days you let me in so I feel that keeping your distance from me was a bit of an act. Some of your antics like not wanting to get in the truck when it is time to leave the cabin or when we were camping and it was cold or pouring rain just kept us creative and on our toes in order to corral you.
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I find myself looking for you at the front door or on your bed. You walked with poise and ran with me too. I wish we had more time for you in more recent years and for that I apologize.
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I loved seeing you play, groom and share space with Tucker who started his life with you as the pesky little puppy but in time became your true brother...
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Our life was better with you in it. Thank you for the memories. I love you Lucy.

Well May has arrived with some beautiful weather and an energy to it that has me looking at the last month or so and realizing I haven't been managing my time or prioritizing my time in the most effective way so I am going to work on that this month :) What are your time management hacks?

This is a prompt I use on Fridays for my journal. I simply write how Friday feels on that day. Sometimes it feels like warmth and energy and other days it feels like the weight of the world is on my shoulders. Sometimes I write paragraphs and other times it is just a couple of sentences, no judgement either way. Gimme one word in the comments about your Friday Feels today.