ToriGrace

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back from vacation.. and here’s what i found out

- your rest / reset game has to be as strong as your grind game.

how many times are we afraid of stopping or pausing incase we lose momentum in something, or someone else gets ahead of us.
i’ve lost followers during my vacation, and i am so okay with that.
the grind will never stop but we have been made with a body and mind that NEED to rest and reset.

- when you’re chronically ill, jet lag hits different.

i always struggle coming back this way then going to the US, my body hates it.
but dangggg when you struggle with chronic sickness, jet lag bodies you. i’ve been home a week and i’m only just starting to get back on my feet.

- i’ve got a couple things to celebrate as well as a more focused direction for the future — which I am working on right now.

sometimes you need to step away and allow things to simmer, so you understand your next few moves.

TLDR. i’m back. i’m coming back slowly. i foresee videos starting to come back next week (finger crossed) and in the next month i’m focusing my content in a very specific way.
i’m excited about the direction and i hope you guys will be too.

thank you for sticking with me. it’s a privilege to have you a part of the fam.

it’s been a week. 💀

if it’s been a rough start to the year or even the month. i feel you. ❤️

i had a procedure on my spine in December, my 8th one in 5 years with a lot of hope that at the very least it would give me a window of controlled chronic pain so I could go hard on rehab and physio. I had made some progress but small steps and I’m talking like the most basic of movements and walking. I haven’t seen the inside of the gym in 5 years even though i signed up to one twice in hopes I’ll get strong enough.

recovery over Christmas was painful and annoying but usually it takes about a month - 6 weeks to heal up and feel the difference.

nah.

everything points to not only the procedure having failed but it’s made the nerve pain down my right leg even worse. (Hoping it’s temporary)
I’ve taken what feels like 6 months backwards compared to the progress I had worked so hard to make - which was just going for short walks outside through out the week.

man I am so fed up with ups and downs of chronic pain. It’s always a rollercoaster of emotions.

a lot of you know I get neuro injections every 12 weeks. 40 of them. and its usually pretty rough for the first week but not unbearable.
I’m not sure if my body is just tired and traumatised by the back procedure but the recovery from this neuro treatment has been awful. so much worse than normal and the treatment procedure itself which is painful but this time it was like 9/10 pain.

my start of the year has just been physically really painful and tiring. it’s affecting my thinking, my creativity and just doing basic things for myself.

BUT I do have something to look forward to in the near future. A well needed brief break. (More on that another time)

I guess I just wanted whoever needed to read this to know, I know it’s been a hard start to 2024. You’re not alone in it. Maybe that’s of no comfort to you lol but maybe you just hope someone would actually understand.

I do. I got you. Let’s choose to find gratitude and joy in the small things regardless.
Thank you Jesus for giving me the strength for every day.

😱😱 did you know…

i have a YOUTUBE channel?

❤️ did you know…that i am obsessed with the relationship and love science?
not only from a relational POV but from a single POV having been single for most of my adult life?

🧠 did you know… that i am also a huge student of mindset science?
self development and everything that comes with it, like cultivating a growth mindset is always at the top of my mind.

🥺 did you know… that i have a huge soft spot for the forgotten age group of the 30s or ANYONE who feels like life has left them behind?

✝️ did you know… i am on a mission to shatter certain stereotypes that some christians have created in their treatment of people who don’t agree with them. my faith in Jesus dictates everything that I do and everything that i am, which includes always showing respect and compassion even to people who vehemently disagree with me.

🥰 did you know… that i am grateful for all of you?

Are you subscribed to my YouTube channel?

i’m not chasing dreams.. I’m hunting goals. ✨

it’s really easy to hit a wall around this time of January… there’s all the hype at the start but then reality kicks in.

don’t let your mindset be: “I gotta change everything and be everything right away”

take one or two things you want to improve on and focus on those.

also dreams are great to have but daydreaming takes you away from the reality that a lot of who we will be in 2024 comes down to CHOICE.

who will you choose to be?
what goals will you choose to run after?