Blooming Alchemy

First forage for the year! In this photo I've got young garlic mustard and onion grass. The second photo shows the greens mixed into my latest batch of ruby sauerkraut. I also put some in apple cider vinegar. Using these methods preserves the nutrients to be enjoyed later on the year. I'll share another post about all the wild mustard I found...so yummy!

I saw a post today that said the first year after birth is harder than the birth itself - because in that year we must birth the soul of a mother within ourselves. This is so true for me! As new mothers we must learn to push fear and selfishness out of our hearts. We make room for sacrifice and unconditional love. Its beautiful and also VERY HARD.

I spent most of my adult life creating a lifestyle of self-care that supported my physical and mental health issues. I felt I had finally found balance in the years just before motherhood. But as a mother, all of that went straight out the window. And FEAR found a solid seat in my heart. It manifested into postpartum anxiety, and I am still climbing my way out of it.

I always considered myself an alchemist. But transmuting this fear is a hefty task. With the help of my parents, I have had time to get back on my yoga mat. I use that time to move the energy in my body while observing the stories in my mind. What stories to I tell about my experience? How are those stories actually CREATING my experience?

During my practice I am noticing that I am the victim in my mental machinations. Its time to see myself as the HERO. All moms are heros! My partner is a hero. My parents are heros. We are so fortunate, and my baby is so fortunate to be surrounded by so much love and abundance. I have to completely reframe the way I've been looking at things.

I am still working on this transmutation of motherhood trials and tribulations. I am changing on a fundamental level to access new chapters of this life with GRACE and POWER. May I continue to find the balance between sacrifice and self-care. May this fear be the thing that makes me strong for myself and my son.

Lilac chocolate chip cookies! @ Souderton, Pennsylvania

Another workout done while baby naps. When he stops napping so much, he's just gonna have to join me! Btw instagram is blowing up with free at-home workouts! Message me if you want to know which ones I enjoyed the most!