Suman

Appreciate the people who chime in on my story posts about life things. I had posted a frustration about how you can go from kicking it with someone to no contact and how much I hate those societal rules (second slide). I was surprised at how many felt it as hard as I did. There were messages from people feeling the weight of it holding them back personally to people straight up saying "f**k the rules" 🥹

This quote came from something I ended up writing to someone; an unexpected epiphany I wanted to share. I saw them out recently, and we walked past each other like we'd never met. Most advice out there would applaud me for "matching energy." Bad bitch s**t, right? 

Let me tell you a little something about when you start working with/paying attention to energy. It turns all this 2D thinking on its head. The result of my not acting in alignment with how I felt? Intense migraines & my whole body was completely out of whack.

I got home that night & couldn't shake it. I played it so well. Nobody, including this person, would know this was someone whose name popping up on my phone would make me smile. Or that I would find stupid excuses to start conversations with them just to hear from them. Now I matched energy so hard we're just strangers.

That's a f**king flex?! Is that where we are? Pretending things don't matter is more of the energy we need in this world?

Social conditioning has taught me that I should preserve my ego & my pride as rule #1. Foolish people show their cards first. 

I had this image of them walking away that night, thinking they meant nothing to me. I realized it didn't matter if it was reciprocated.
I don't want to match energy. 
I want truth.

And there it was: I would (FOOLISHLY) rather them walk away because of things said than be left with things unsaid.

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