Faded Between Both Halos

Journal Entry (January 29th, 2023) -

Daer Jor-- I mean, January ..,

I HAAAATE THE HUMAN SPECIES!!!!. All day, my day has been JUST the absolute worst of all days in america. Just as I thought family couldnt get any worse, they boost their unkindness to FULLFAAACKINGGEARR!! Gosh I wish I had a better set of family memebers that weren't so bend on compition & being "the favorite" & could just help each other out like family suppose to.



My brother talks about white people like thier so bad, BUT at least their race allll sacks of s**t, brother, AT LEAST white people are actually joys to be around ( welp, some of them with genuine energy anywhy). I'm beginning to think, out of all of my siblings, I'm the one that's going to bring my family out of this dry spell.



It's hard being the black sheep, but holding that position & then finding peace in it. -- But what kind of peace do you call this?? I call it , KHAOS



Sincerely, The reapers' Avocate.

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Good evening to everyone out there!, whomever may be reading this.
(Thursday - January 12th, 2023) | Motivational Word Of The Evening: Success | Topic: Overcoming Mental Blockages, Opening Your Mind to the Nothing. By: Faded Between Both Halos

Good evening my friends,
This evening's topic is based off of a thought process of mine. Such a thought that has been surfacing in my head since this morning & I thought I would share it here.

If you feel lost, or are confused as to what I'm talking about then I apologize in advance, or I'll explain what I'm referring to.

• Imagine An Eagle Fighting A Dragon | First Half Of This Post

Your Biggest enemy is yourself! That other half is your shadow self. That side of you full of self-doubt, worry, anger, rage, disgust, disconnect, numbness, sadness, apathy, etc.

You are in control on how you think, feel, & connect with whomever energies you come in contact with. Weather it be a human being or said, an animal that was once human, turned into an animal.

Think of yourself as majestic & as in high flight, like the eagle, wondering, searching for food as it finds it's way discovering what comes in & out of life itself. Extreme as it may sound, you as the eagle, rather - is in control of your wings. Whereas the dragon takes flight as the spiritual being that it is. Beautiful in every color scheme, different blues, yellows, oranges, reds, violets, etc.

But when they come in contact with each other, they find it hard to be on the same planet, trying to control each other - as the eagle is bold, courageous, Bountiful & intelligent. Expressive in every aspect of the word, meant to protect & drive out any & every unhabituated thing that doesn't belong on this particular planet.

• Universal Languages Of F.A.I.T.H. (Although We May Stumble, The Wind Will Lead Us.) [ Tape A]

We all deal with different languages of English. But the type of language that I'm referring to is the universal language of faith.

F. - Foolishness
A. - Accountability
I. - Intelligence
T. - Timing
H. - Honesty

The way that you have faith, & as long as you follow these five rules then you should be able to gain what you are looking for in life,

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If I have anything to add, please GO & follow me on tumblr & drop a follow & I'll be posting on there for tonight.

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Today is Monday, the 9th of January, 2023. This morning was an early one, woke up with a painful stomach & decided to take some medicine for it, to cure the gruesome pain that I've felt.
Then, I proceeded to pray & ask for healing from any bad energy that was looking to harm me.

Later on, I found myself waking up around 2:20 in the afternoon, never slept that long before, so you could say that my body needed to rest after that sudden peak of pain. Had some coffee & some chicken flavored ramen. Thursday is food stamp day so I'll have to wait until we get food stamps to buy what I really want.

Not a lot to say, BUT i've been feeling desperate for a blessing, a miracle from above. Too many things in my life has been put in the way of my future - constantly stressinbme out, giving my a reason to give up, tearing me apart from the inside & it's been hindering my spirit. I definitely need start praying more.

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Also, I have this dream that I would like to follow through on, taking my philosophy to the next level with my blogging technique & expand my vocabulary, you know, brand off into a much better comfort space to put my thoughts down on. Next, would be taking my boatmaking, & my Video editing to an exceeding level.

I'll get there someday. Just have to keep on studying on what works for my liking.
Sincerely,
Faded Between Both Halos