Mending Miss Morgan

I grew up believing that there was something fundamentally wrong with me. That I was bad and broken. I know now that this was never the case. I simply had parents who did not have the tools to hold and support my humanness. At 12, I started having BIG emotions after my mom’s second divorce. And because no one knew how to guide me through this, i was sent to doctors for years, hospitals for brain scans and endless testing, and even taken out of school to live in a Lutheran Social services house at 16. No doctor or hospital could find anything “wrong with me” and later withdrew our visits because they knew that this was a matter if deep family dysfunction. I was healthy, did well in school, and played a year round sport (hockey) that i was very good at. I was tired and emotionally unsupported. Still, it was made to be known that i was unwell, unstable, and out of control. I internalized this belief for the next 20 years. This gave my mother the attention she was seeking in order to fill her own wounds. This wound was by no fault of her own; she simply wasn’t given the tools either.

I have spent 8 years, unraveling that “broken and bad” little girl. That girl who was put on numerous meds at 13, when her brain was still very much developing - meds that numbed her out and didnt allow her to feel. That girl who was brainwashed to believe there was “something wrong with her” when all she ever needed was someone to sit with her and say, “i know this is hard. I hear you, and I’m here to support you”. What a gift it is to be able to give that love to myself today ❤️

I truly beleive that all that any human wants is to be seen and heard - not dismissed, not shamed, not told we’re too sensitive or too emotional, not gaslit and told we’re remembering things wrong … just heard. Acknowledged. And not left alone to sit with our pain. So if you’re here and you’ve been conditioned to believe you’re the problem by adults who have little to no emotional safety or intelligence; i see you. I hear you. I am you.

Good Morning! A huge THANK YOU to all of you who are here so far, as I navigate how to do this. Some awarenesses, thus far:

1) Creating a "business" or "creator" page, like this one, is actually LESS private than a personal page... from what ive seen, there is no way to filter who follows this page - whereas, on a personal page, friend requests exist.

2) In honoring my own code of not shrinking ourselves for the comfort of others, why do i even need to start a separate page?!?! 🤔 Processing here. The core people who have, historically, lashed out at me for the things i share... they have me blocked anyways!

3) In trying to link my Instagram videos/reels to this page, i then have to create yet another Instagram "business" page.... and managing that many social media accounts is just not what Im interested in.

4) So if you see this page disappear and a new version of my personal page exist... trust that its one in the same and your not missing out on anything im sharing. I may just find the courage to do it all in one space, not caring who sees it or who is uncomfotable with my shares. Im not here to talk about anyone else but myself and my experience.

and 5) My astrology reading for today says this: "Today, let your freak flag fly without worrying about the peanut gallery's commentary. Unleash those wild instincts you've been keeping on a leash - the world needs more of your authentic chaos."

I am right where I need to be ✨