Jessica Shae Calvert

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✝️🅾️ My Girl Gabriella 🟰my Very First Build A Bear🥹

I’ve had Her ever since I was 1️⃣2️⃣Years ⭕️LD , I’ve been through a lot of in life but

my Disney high school musical the movie

build a bear that I made many many years ago from build a bear workshop has

always been there for me through every physical heath and mental health that I had for years and years

along with every Evil narcissist ex boyfriend that treated me like trash➖every time I would get my heart broken and cry so hard

Her brown fur was Soaked with my tears that I cried cuz that was when I didn’t know how to stand up for myself

I take her everywhere with me , cuz she isn’t old 🟰She’s Vintage and very special to me

And if you look at her today cuz I take good care of my toys and plushies

( her fur needs to be brushed , her nose only has some string on it where her nose is at , I’ve noticed her stitching from where they stitched🧵 her up years ago is trying to come Undone on her back )

➖This is called Love cuz when you have had a Toy or something that Is very special to your whole heart for years , yes they get old and lose some stitching and other stuff but we still love them😘

My build a bear Gabriella she’s helped me get through all the terrible things that I’ve been through in life ,

One year when I had to stay at Uab in Birmingham Alabama cuz I was having suicidal thoughts➕had severe depression , anxiety , very bad sadness and unhappiness

She went with me while I got help that I needed , the day I left the hospital

I had forgotten that I left Her under my bed sheets cuz I didn’t want anyone to steal her from me

And the Hospital they found her and my Daddy went and picked her up for me from the hospital

Cuz that would have been very sad for me

if I had lost my very special Build a bear that I made

She has been with me everywhere from going to vacations to camping and

I especially took her with me to the doctor cuz I was afraid of getting my throat swabbed for strep throat , afraid of getting Ivs put in my hand , afraid of them pricking my finger , taking my blood for blood work , I used to be really afraid of needles

( but hugging her and praying to God with Her Help and God’s help I was able to not be afraid of anything cuz today I only fear God cuz he is more scarier then Satan and anything that’s evil in this world )

At Cold Springs when I was still going to school , I was bullied for the first time at Cold Springs Elementary school and the worse part was the teachers they didn’t do anything to stop it and my friends didn’t stand up for me

But when I moved across to The Cold Springs High School I was bullied again

It happened during our Pe class that Coach Tomlin was teaching , I was playing dodgeball and I got hit with a hard ball so in dodgeball that means your out

if y’all understand the game I’m talking about , I sat down on the bleachers cuz I’m out then the next thing

I know , I’m being hit all over my body with hard Dodge balls , I looked up from trying to shield my body and I was hit again in the stomach , then I seen them - it was Jamie Ballenger with dark hair cuz he and my other bully his name was Jamie Ballenger also but he had blonde hair

➗Both of them jerks bullied me in Cold Springs Elementary school so anyway

Jamie ballenger the one with dark hair was the one hitting me repeatedly with Hard dodge balls even though I was already out of the game

And all my classmates and the coach tomlin himself all just kept on playing dodge ball or watching him hit me over and over again with the really hard dodgeball that he had

All I could do was sit on the bleacher and cry and try my best to try to shield my body and coach tomlin our coach at that time in Pe all he did was either watch it happen or he was texting or talking in his phone the whole PE Class

No classmates or even the coach made my Evil bully stop , he just kept throwing dodge balls at me until suddenly it stopped

Because my best friend Deacon Parker seen what was happening so He ran , put his arms out Right in front of me and protected me from getting hit from the dodge balls that everyone else just let it happen

He yelled at Jamie Ballenger my bully to stop while I just cried cuz I didn’t have the voice to stand up for myself like the one I have today

That day I found out who my real friends were and that was only one Person :

Deacon Parker and we are still extremely close best friends today

And that same day after that happened after school I just cried when I went to my bedroom : I was upset that I couldn’t stand up for myself , I was upset that those people were not My Real friends if they wouldn’t make the bullying stop 🛑

Deacon is a real friend , he stood up for me and protected me and my body when nobody else didn’t even care or even try to protect me from getting hurt repeatedly by the dodgeballs

That was when my trust issues really started cuz that day I found who my true friends were

I was upset cuz I only had one real friends when I was friends with all those people for years and they wouldn’t
even stand up for me nope that’s wasn’t right at all

I hugged my Gabriella high school musical build a bear as tight as I could hug and and cried my heart out when that happened that day in my room it was silently crying

Cuz I knew right then the only Real and loyal friends that I still had was Deacon Parker & my Girl Gabriella

But over the years even though her fur isn’t as soft anymore and she is losing her stitching in her nose and on her back , many tears were cried in her whole teddy bear body

My Tears from heart break , sadness , loneliness and just unhappiness

I know I have a lot of plushies but I mean it when I tell you that she is my number one

favorite stuffed animal that I own because every health problem , mental health problem , Fear , Unhappiness of losing people who I thought were my real friends and being treated like trashed by my narcissist ex boyfriends 🟰

All of this trauma that I had to go through when I was so young from going to Cold Springs Elementary School and Cold Springs High School and a little into my Adult years

I did not deserve to be treated like trash or have to go through any of the terrible things that I went through and while it was all happening all I could do was pray to God and Hug my Gabriella

Now you all know why my first build a bear named Gabriella from Disney’s High school Musical is so special to me cuz

everything I went through in life , praying to God for it to get better and hugging my Gabriella helped me face my fears and learn that I’ve got a voice and I will never let people ever try to bully me again

And I would love for my bear to have soft fur again and not look so dirty and be stained with my tears of all my past traumas but I don’t want her stitches🧵 that’s on her body to come undone or her stuffing to fall out

She isn’t just a stuffed animal she is my Beary Best Friend and I just can’t even think of the thought of losing her one day if she gets so old to where she completely falls apart

I’m just going to keep on loving my bear and cuddling her and dressing her up

Cuz that is the Real love that all Build a bear stuffed animals and any kind of plushie really deserves

People that will love their stuffed animals and not throw them away just because their fur isn’t as soft anymore

I hope you enjoy reading my story of why Gabriella is so Very special to me🫶

Happy National Teddy Bear Day🌈🥳

Now go and give your Teddy Bear and all your stuffed animals extra hugs today cuz

they really deserve to be loved and appreciated as much as I love and appreciate my bear Gabriella🦋

She was there for me through all my trauma , bad memories and today she is with me as I finally have my voice after going through all of that negativity many years ago😉

Yassss Queen👑💃💅🔥🌹😌😏My voice to stand up against negativity , bullies , haters and rudeness

And yep I’m Hugging her now🧸

Have a great week and an amazing weekend🌞🦄