EveryDay Shine

I knew it was coming but it’s kinda hard to imagine it here.
This time I sat with you, touched you and looked at what your soul left behind.
My dear sleeping,
my sweet dear…Aja…
My last visual of you.
So many memories rush in flashes as my eyes scan your body.
All I can think is- visits I want more visits
More time with you not these memories that I have to work hard not to fade.
Visits I need more time with you…
I need to hear you laugh, that smile and lively remarks
Visits I wanted more visits to share my life and make you proud
For you to see me walk down the ale, see a man love me how I deserve
I hadn’t got a chance to be bold with my art like you wanted,
to give it my all and share all of what’s coming
What I’d give for more visits
In the bed, walking, watching you painting, being silly
or just existing in this world-
My opinionated girly
telling us you can walk lying in bed fighting MS- you got health problems so early
I know it’s selfish to ask for the time, but man I really want it.
To watch my mother care for you, and you dismiss her cunningly man are you funny
More visits to tell me who you think is handsome, I mean I question your taste but hey it’s the experience I’m wanting…
I knew it was coming, I knew it was coming
The call told me not to go to work, but I did
And I’m regretting it
My mom told me to go to work, but I didn’t want to - I was tired of them sending you out when it was so close to you coming home-
stealing my aunt- stealing my visits
Stealing my visits- I just want more time
No one can prepare you for the shock
no many how many times you run it.
For now all I got is me wanting…
More time, more laughs
more us
more love
more life to share
It’s the experience
The ones I’m regretting not having more of
For now
Soon I’ll bathe in the pleasure of what we shared
One of my greatest champions was my aunt
And I’ll miss her not being here
My last words to say to you here
What do you say?
Didn’t know what to say to my gran,
Now here I am again……
All I could say was come visit me
Aunty come visit me please

Bathing in the joy of releasing the sink hold of loving the unwilling…..

New poetry coming….