Beauty In The Breakdown

“The aftermath of Childhood”
03/06/21

“The Fear & the Tear”
mommy, why are you crying?
Is it because Daddy is always lying?
Is it because Daddy is never home?
Out somewhere with a dancer named Rome,
& when he comes back home he don’t got no lovin left for you,
Tell me, is what I say true,
mommy why are you crying?
Is it because Daddy stopped trying?
Is it because he spits venom in every word,
Just so he can be heard,
I knew Daddy wasn’t a nice man,
The day I watched him chase you down in your car while you ran,
I’d never seen you run so fast,
That memory is embedded into my brain forever it will last,
mommy why are you crying?
Is it because you always feel like dying?
I remember the night you almost killed yourself,
Sissy and I talked you into putting that knife back on the shelf,
Our house turns into a zoo,
When Daddy starts to hit you,
I remember when you would escape his angry fists & run and hide in my room,
Along with your muffled tears came an utter sense of gloom,
Oh, how I wish I could have rescued you,
& have you the love that was past due,
I wonder why Daddy is so mean to you,
But I think only Jehovah knew,
mommy why are you crying?
Is it because you wish you were with the angels flying?

11-6-19