Jesse D.

Hello beautiful souls!✨⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I'm Jesse. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
You're friendly neighborhood VA/OBM.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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I love fruit snacks, Notre Dame, and I'm a little bit too obsessed with true crime. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I also suffer from mental illness. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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I'm in recovery from a gruesome drug addiction, ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I also suffer from Bipolar I disorder.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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🗣I'm here to tell you that it's fu***ng hard. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
(yes, I am medicated for it)⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
but it's still hard...⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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I still have bouts of insomnia.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Monday night, I did not sleep.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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I finally went to sleep at 8:30 am Tuesday.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I slept until 12:30⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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I think one of the absolute worst things to deal with⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
is laying down in bed being exhausted⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
but you cannot sleep⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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doesn't matter how many sheep you count,⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
how many body scans you do⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
how long you lay there with your eyes closed ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
trying to sleep. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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It doesn't work. It is pure agony.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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I got to the point of tears⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
because I wanted to sleep so badly.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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This is why I went dark today.🌑⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I had to reset and rejuvenate my body.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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I'm extremely grateful for having the ability to take a day off⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
stay in bed, and not worry about getting in trouble ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
at work. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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It was painful and miserable, but I survived. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I am strong, and I am worthy of getting through the pain.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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If you are reading this and suffer from insomnia, mental illness, or stress.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I want you to know I see you and I hear you. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I know the pain. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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You are worthy of making it thru.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
You are strong⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
You are perseverant.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
You are a badass⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
And...⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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You're not alone.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
If you ever need to talk, I'm here. I will listen and empower you thru the pain. 🖤