Lovey's Blog

I took the long way around.
Down the wrong roads.
Into the wrong arms.
Chasing love that was never going to stay, no matter how much i wanted it to.
I poured myself into people who only knew how to take from me and leave.
I bent and I compromised.
I tried to be softer, easier, smaller...hoping that if I loved hard enough, it would finally be enough.
It wasn’t.
I was ignored.
Dismissed.
Treated like I was optional.
And there’s a particular kind of darkness that settles in when you start believing that’s all you deserve.
You stop expecting good things.
You brace for disappointment.
You call heartbreak “just my luck.”
I’ve held the shattered pieces of my own heart more times than I care to admit. I’ve sat on the floor, tears falling, asking the same question over and over...
Why not me?
Why does love seem to work for everyone else?
And yet, every time I swore I was done, I’d open my heart again… only to find myself standing on the same broken road.
But here’s what I finally understand.
I wasn’t unlucky.
I was settling.
Settling for crumbs instead of waiting for the right one.
Settling for potential.
Settling for being treated like I was replaceable.
And I’m not.
I couldn’t keep living on edge..waiting for the next betrayal, the next letdown, the next fire to burn through what little hope I had left.
So I stopped.
I stopped blaming fate.
I stopped calling pain normal.
I stopped accepting less than I should.
I’ve been broken. I’ve been lost. I’ve been so deep in the dark that I forgot what light felt like.
But I don’t stay down.
Not anymore.
I am more than good enough.
I am worth choosing.
And most importantly, I choose myself now.
Some people won’t come with me as I grow.
That’s okay. If they can’t be good with who I’m becoming, they were never meant to stay.
I’m not handing my heart to anyone who hasn't the earned the privilege of having it. In fact, I’m done chasing love altogether.
Love will find me when I’m ready, not when I’m searching for someone to fix what I should be healing myself.
Somewhere along the way, I lost pieces of who I was.
Now I’m reclaiming them.
It’s time to evolve and grow.
Time to breathe in the person I should be.
Time to rediscover the woman I buried under heartbreak.
Yes, my story has scars.
Bad decisions.
Hard lessons.
But it also has resilience.
Strength and clarity.
A comeback strong enough to shake the ground beneath me.
That’s enough for now.
I’ll figure out the rest the way I always do...step by step, fire in my chest, head held high.
Because every day, in every way,
I got this.
|ravenwolf

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I’ll never tell you that I don’t get down on myself and feel lost,
Because it happens all the time.
Everyone praises me for my strength and admires my resilience…
Because those don’t see those other times and feel my struggle sometimes.
I’m not telling you that I’m not strong, because I am
I’ve had to be.
My life didn’t give me any other choices.
But when you get beaten down enough times, you make a choice:
Become a victim or become a victor.
I chose to keep getting up, keep showing up and keep fighting.
That doesn’t mean I don’t have bad days or that I always win.
Far from it.
What it does mean is that I shifted my perspective.
I stopped asking “why me?”
I started asking “why not me?”
I let go of the failures but learned from them.
I started approaching every obstacle with a different mindset.
I know now that I will either overcome or adapt, that there are no dead ends unless I choose to see them that way.
People will disappoint me, things will hurt me, life will crush me if I let it…
But I choose to let none of those define me reduce me or destroy me.
I’m more than simply strong, complex or resilient.
I’m determined…
To always find a way.
To always rise above.
To seek joy midst the storms.
Most of all, to celebrate my strengths and improve my weaknesses.
Maybe I only make a small step forward today, but if I keep taking those small steps…
Eventually l’ll find myself where I want to be-
Or at least a lot closer.
This is my life and my choice.
I choose happiness.
One moment, one victory, one dream at a time.
|ravenwolf