Awake motivation

I can't sleep I keep thinking about this What if, with everything that's going on The world really is coming to an end? Then what? What if it isn't a lie? (What if?) What if we make it to heaven and don't get inside? (What if?) What if we get to the gates, and see God on the other side and he Looks us in our face and says our whole lives we've wasted time? What if we can't go back? (What if?) What if we can't redo this life and get one second chance? What if our future happiness is memories of our past (God) While we burn forever haunted by the devil's laughs? (Hahahaha) Why? Why do we push them away? (Why?) And why do the ones we work to keep never actually stay? (Why?) Why do we focus on tomorrow and forget about today (Why?) And smile in everybody's face and try and act like we're okay? Why do we live this way? Why do we hate? Why do we fight? Why do act like there's time and got more than one life? Why? (Answer me) Why? Why!? Why? Why? I'm older and looking for truth I'm holding my faith in my hand but the Pain in this world has been shaking it loose I used to have so much to gain Now I have so much to lose They say I'm crazy for looking for answers I say they crazy for not giving proof Vision is blurred, I'm over concerned I'm looking at God to see if life with him is something I've earned The devil's been watching he's tryna Recruit he's been waiting at every turn I'm driving this life on the highway to hell but I won't burn! F**k! We know the difference We know what is wrong and we know what is right But Satan is strong, God And most of your people are losing the fight (We try) So what if we fail? What if we can't escape his lies? (What if?) What if we can't change, what if he still controls our minds? Where do we run? Where do we go? Who do we talk to? We look around and everyone we see is lost too (F**k) What if life was just some test that we all do? (What if?) What if you were busy when we called you? What if hell's on earth? What if being born is dying..