OGCryptor

I talked to someone today about the baggage I’ve been carrying, and they said things that genuinely shook me.

That I’m “threatened by peace.”
That I’ve been “hiding in the noise.”
That stability feels like commitment.

And that maybe I’m not threatened by peace at all - I’m just not used to it yet.

It sounds simple, but it hit hard. Wild how a stranger can hold up a mirror you didn’t know you needed.

Life is wild.

I tried to return to Destiny 2, but it felt less like playing a game and more like visiting the grave of an old friend and trying to have a picnic. Beautiful memories, but they're gone. I uninstalled out of respect (as weird as it sounds).

I’ve been doing a lot of work on myself lately - trying to become a better version of who I was, not just as a creator, but as a person. Part of that has meant changing the way I speak, the way I carry myself, and the energy I bring into the world.

One thing I’ve struggled with is playing games with friends whose style is a lot harsher than mine - heavy language, w**d on mic, that whole vibe. There’s no judgment in that. People live how they live. But it’s just not me anymore.

I’m trying to build something different.
Something calmer.
Something more intentional.
Something that reflects the person I’m becoming.

I still love playing with people. I still want to share those moments. I just need to find a way to do it that doesn’t pull me back into habits I’m trying to leave behind.

If you’ve ever tried to grow past an older version of yourself, you probably know the feeling.

I’m still figuring it out - but I’m committed to staying on this path.